I just can't fucking win at this game of life. For once, after being rather depressed for at least 3 months now, I finally have a fucking good day! The kind of day that just makes you think that for once there are people out there that are appreciative that you are alive and you are practically "high" from all the good vibes. And then you innocently grab the remote control to turn to a channel to watch the show that we have all gathered at the house to watch and lo and behold...I get completely shit on by Mike's roommate. I was caught so offguard by the unprovoked comment that I just can't think of anything to say, so I walk away. Now here's the trouble. Do I say anything to resolve the fact that all my happy feelings from earlier have now been pissed away for no reason? I can't talk to Chris because at this point I'm too angry to look at him. Even his laughing at the show fuels my anger because he gets to shit on me because "he's in a mood" and my happiness is now gone, but that doesn't matter because no one was mean to him... no one cares about my feelings. But, as it so happened, I get doubly shit on when I talk to Mike about trying to keep the peace in his house since I'm forced to see Chris every time I'm there. It didn't used to be a problem, he used to be nice and just play around. Now he seems almost constantly bitter and vicious. Mike gets angry at me for not fighting my own battles and since I complain about not knowing what to do, he doesn't even want to touch me or finish the discussion with me. I don't even understand his line of thinking on this because he wouldn't be straightforward with what he was thinking. But it doesn't matter. I'm the only one crying myself to sleep tonight. Shame on me for thinking I could have 1 fucking happy day in 3 months. I finally get it and I'm ready to give up.